Older, wiser, but not done....

Ever feel like your skills and abilities have been totally overlooked, and that it's too late to do anything about it? I got to feeling that way today. Took a motivational gifts test at www.gifttest.org, found my 2 primary gifts have a lot to do with being able to see things clearly, see the big picture, and to get the job done, among other things. I say that so that you will know I am really being very objective with what I say below, not being conceited or anything. I am very hard on myself and evaluate my skills and abilities for exactly what they are.

I did great in school, and even aced some of the hardest courses in college, so I know I have the mental ability. I've been fascinated with management, have even gotten to do some of it. Mostly love it from the motivational aspects, of helping people see so much more in themselves, realizing more of their potential than they might have seen. To me, that's exciting, to see someone achieve goals they never thought they could. I've only been given one shot at managing others, which is really discouraging. Have always given 100%+ in whatever jobs I've had. But at this point in my life, it feels like a total waste. I'm not dead and gone by any means, but in the work world, I feel pretty much like it.

I see others getting ahead, and am glad for them, but it's kinda depressing, watching it. I know I think faster than many, am a ton more productive, effective, and efficient than most, but seem to be totally mired down in quicksand, sinking slowly but surely.On a different side, I also have skills in several other areas, but to make a living at any of them, well, without the funds to invest, would be really difficult if not impossible, to do them on a scale large enough to support myself. Seems the only way I will ever get ahead is to pursue a business of some kind of my own, where my only limitations are those I put on myself. I love the freedom to create, experiment, test, until success is found. I am normally a very optimistic person, but it's getting harder and harder to hang onto that as time goes on.

yep, kind of a bummer day, I guess. figure we all have them sometimes. today is mine.